Tuesday, August 11, 2009
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very tired mentally.
really RAT (Racing Against Time)
sometimes i wish people could be a wee bit more understanding.
so that i know people still care (for me)
and they know i'm trying my best (though it doesn't look like)
and i would feel better.
apparently, life is so disgusting that everyone needs to take care of their own mess and heck care how you're feeling.
that's when you needed someone to talk to, and you realise you can't even find one.
not a fucking single one.
tell me, how pathetic life can be.
so after this post, i can predict people asking/texting me
"hey you okay?" "don't worry, everything's going to be fine"
very typical. so in order for me not to be so typical, i don't do such thing.
is so not me. so fake. so hypocrite.
that's why i appear very cold, aloof to certain people. i don't blame them. that's how i am.
i'm not complaining. i'm merely voicing out.
i know there are people out there caring for me but they don't say. i thank them deep in my heart. thanks for caring. i love you guys.
but there also people whom i care alot, but they don't know. it hurts.
i don't say. doesn't mean i dont care.
oh wells. jj just talked to me. HAHAHAHHA. so gay!
