Monday, July 17, 2006
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alright. i'm suppose to be studying now. but i get really bored here. and went to friendster to go for a testimonial spree.
actually i'm just very bothered by certain things.
why can other people last so long for years. while we only lasted for months? i thought we could last forever. when we talk things that seem so far. i really thought you meant what you say. i've ALWAYS believe in you. but why did you actually choose this path? why did you ever have to let go of us?
was it my fault that we turn out this way? or what. fuck fuck. i don't know why. i shouldn't be thinking about such stuff. but i just couldn't help it. you say we will last. you gave me hopes and you dashed it. you make me feel that you're someone i can talk to and someone to depend on. and now you just leave me alone there to survive. what am i suppose to do?
so tell me why. why do you have to be so cruel and treat me like that? were you just playing along with me all the while? then why choose me? fuck
man you really leave me to bleed and die now. how i wish you can feel how i am feeling now.
so why others have it and i don't? i thought i tried my best. why can other people be so committed and you cant? why?
i wish i know all the answers. but i know it doesn't help to ease the pain. fuck. why do you have to cause me so much pain?
is a 8 month relationship. how can you let go just like that? don't you feel sad at all? you were part of my life for that 8 month and i grow so dependent on you. then why did you have to go.
OH FUCK. you're such an arse. why did i ever fall for you. fuck myself. i want to curse you. but i can't. if only you ain't such person. i would have believe in the quote "love doesn't mean possesion"
i hate myself for being so vulnerable. afterall, i'm still a girl affected by such stuff.
it's just some random post. so don't be too bothered. but i'm still typing in good english. :]
